Last day

Yooohoooo! Tomorrow is my last day here, (yes, am blogging from my workplace now).. Was so so looking forward to it but after knowing that I would have at least 3 patients to see, the most numbers of patient for all the Saturdays that I had worked for... sigh!!

It's been a while

*Listening to 桂冠英雄 by David Tao* over and over again

... 我知道我要...

It's been a while since I last dropped by here to blabber something.. Life was mostly a routine for the past few months, traveling one-hour plus to work and wondering if this was really what I had wanted to do.. no joke.. that's really what I was thinking everyday then!

I was once lost, months ago.. suddenly lost the aim of being where and what I am now, I wanted so much to blame someone for this, but I know in the end, it's my choice and blaming is just going to make me felt more lost and unhappy. So.. I had decided to seek the other way out..

... so yes, I am leaving the place again... I feel so relieved. Just like how I felt when I left the first place. I don't know how the new environment is, but I know that I am not ready to leave the hospital environment. 3 1/2 years there, 5 months here taught me a lot, that I still have so much to strive for! I aint going to stop at where I am now doing something totally not something I should do as a professional!

Studies; 万事俱备，只欠东风！Part of me know that it is gonna be tough but I just feel so good that am upgrading myself and do something that I have wanted to since the school days. Some asked me if it's worth the money, I don't know but my heart tells me this what I want to, if I don't do it, I will most probably regret later. I am at the most privileged situation with so little of commitments and I should just give it a go!

Shifting; Living alone here for so many years make me realise that family support is utmost important in different stages of your life, family members are the pillar of strength. Glad that I will be seeing them very soon. Not by any chance that am gonna give up on having my own family too! Please grant me the wish!! Hehe...

Till next time!

... still listening to the same song now.. =P

A Whole New... Look?

For the sake of perfect smile in future.. I shall endure!

..hope they go away soon and I can start living normally.. and I can shake away some extra fat during this period.. *wink*

Ouch!

This is the second week of the process. Got a little punched-feeling after I woke up from my nap. Ice and ice and ice.. The roots are big, no wonder they make it becomes so 'crowded'.. and of course out of shape!

... Next week will be the final week of the process with a new look.. haha.. 还蛮期待的！

Am so cool

Why?.. because I waited for the bus for one hour in the rain, ended up spending more money and time to take train back home... and I was still able to put a big smile on my face to the aunty working at Macdonald's... and she responded back with just a simple yet warm 'THANKS'.

.. Another thanks from a patient at work today, for bringing him back to his pre-morbid status. He was, apparently depressed after the operation as people told him that he would never be able to move like he was.. Today, he was smiling all the way from the moment he stepped into the centre and out.. I was glad to know that, at least despite some issues at work, I am still able to help the people under my care to the certain extent. Maybe I should start counting the number of 'thanks' that I receive everyday to make my day more meaningful?

I have finally stopped procrastinating, and started executing the plans.. July '09 is the aim!!

Exploring something that I like, learning how to 'see' from different angles, be creative. I believe that if we are able to leave our comfort zone, and change the perception and way of understanding things that happen around us, do not blame others but self-reflect as much as possible.. life will be much simpler.. We are what we think, not what other perceive we as.. and I think with that I start to have more control of how I interpret and understand the problems now..

.. and all this is enough to wipe away most of the frustration after the long wait at the bus stop..

Himalayas Slideshow

... from the previous entry

For some people..

No, I didn't really do the trekking/hiking up to 5600m but was on the vehicle, afterall my trip was about 'The Highest Road in the World', of course took car la.. ar be then?!

... but I don't mind if anyone want to jio me for hiking at Nepal, heard the Annapurna is cool.. shall we???

Seeking the halcyon life

...Just came back from my Himalayas trip last Sunday.. Managed to upload 4 albums of photo onto Facebook realising that I really love taking photos! And, am so so hunger for a DSLR now.. =P in love with photography now.. should I change profession and become a photographer?? haha..

It was really a fun memorable trip despite the headache, vomiting (yes, I vomited once on the second day.. =(..but I was glad I did, at least I was pretty well throughout the whole road trip..haha! 先苦后甜嘛!), palpitation and fainting-like feeling walking at 4000m plus from sea level. Spending time at the mountains area looking at the local people made me realise that life can be very simple if we want to actually, and we don't have to be so obsessed with certain things, if it is meant to be, it will be.. I wonder how would the local people think of us when they see us? Will they want to lead the hectic rat-race life like us here or they rather wear the same clothing everyday and eat whatever available there?? Something to ponder on...

... On the side note, I love our mother earth.. she cured my headache while we went trekking one of the mornings! Amazing! =) Think I should start going for the morning walks here every weekends!

Get to know a lot of nice people from the trip, from strangers we become friends that talk about the trip, the fun stuffs i.e. the name game that we had together on the car then and look forward for the next coming endless trips! This is the magical part of meeting people that share the same interest as you.. Hope I will get to travel with them again soon!

Sadly, all of us have to come back to the reality after the break, though I don't think this break is enough. Well, in fact.. there is never a long-enough holiday break for me.. good things just seem to fly away very fast.. I think as long as I have enjoyed and learnt something out of it, that is what most important and valuable..

People asked me why I chose this type of holiday instead of an easy-relaxing-shopping-type one, well.. all I can say is, apart from having it as a farewell trip for a friend, we are afterall only young once.. we need to keep on venturing the nature and experiencing the different cultures while we can and have the chance to! And am so glad that I have agreed to join this expedition. Things are so unexpectedly enjoyable! Speaking of shopping, hey, I did shop there too.. but no Prada no Gucci.. just pure hand-made stuffs that guess what.. you wouldn't be able to find the similar second piece here! That's even more priceless than the branded stuffs, isnt it so? We people have really been indulging ourselves in too much of luxuries here.

So looking forward to the upcoming adventurous holidays! Till then, I have to start executing my long-forgotten plans and move on.. Give me the power of determination!

It is called 'Facebank'

Then we had Facebook.. now we have FACEBANK!

Gosshh.. am wondering if anyone want their kids to own this??

Freaking creepy that I don't think the kids would love to put their savings into that! But then.. I must salute to the Japanese to invent this.. why cant they just put a better looking face?! mmm...

p/s: just came back from Himalayas, still suffering from after-holiday bluesssss... Am falling in love with the adventure trip! I don't want to work! And I want a DSLR... haha..

Pai seh..

Ha.. I think that I have scared some of the friends with my previous blog entry..

Ladies.. am doing fine now.. I think it's a matter of PMS and emotional instability when you are out of control of certain things, and little lost then..

In fact, am feeling just great now as am leaving for my Himalayas trip this Friday with a buddy that I might not be seeing him for a while after he leaves for his home country... It has been a great one and half year knowing him, though he can be an irritating one occasionally.. but that what a friendship is, I suppose.. irritate you so that you know them well enough to accept them as what they are?? hehe..

...oh and a sms from one yesterday had lighten up the worries too.. It is not something good to worry about this I must say.. just so 烦烦烦！

Next time can someone please remind me not to be so emotional!!

想太多。。

好久好久没有用华语写blog了。。突然心血来潮想把最近的心事，感想写下来。。好让以后再回来这的时候回想自己是多么的无聊吧？ At least that is what I feel every time I read my archives here..

最近的心情有点忽起忽落。。不知道是因为PMS还是什么。。把身边的朋友都给吓了一跳。。还以为我真的生了他们的气，真不好意思！感觉上就是不对。。很迷惑！

朋友说别想这么多。。让事情顺其自然，我也是这么觉得。。但是偶尔难免会自问自己是不是真的被cursed了。。没有一次是好事，总是当感觉对的时候。。一些不愉快的谣言或feedback 就开始浮现。。 弄得自己胡思乱想。。

刚刚做了一件非常无聊cum没志气的事。。还好有一位多年的朋友提醒了我这句话 "You don't have to be at one's mercy，get a grip of yourself"

这个礼拜，我让人给放了两次的鸽子。。开始怀疑世界上怎么会有这样没信用的人。。我不敢说我是个非常有信用的人，从然我也放了一些人的鸽子。。但是都是有valid reasons 的！这两位本来也称不上什么特别朋友的友人现在撤撤底底的fall into my ignore list for am going to give them super attitude from now on! 算我倒霉碰上这一些瘟神！

再过几天，XXX 就回来了。。本来是一件挺开心及期待的事。。不过经过最近的消息和反应。。真的觉得也不过如此。。有时候怀疑我是不是太过不理智了。。凡事都太过于急躁。。可能是从小受到妈妈的影响。。什么都要快！哈哈！why cant things just be simple and straightforward?? 要与不要真的这么难做决定吗？

。。urgh!! 肚子的毛病又来了。。该时候休息了。。明天又是一天。。希望是个好天，好开始。。

I really need to stop procrastinating and finish up what I am supposed to do, can anyone just give me a push here!! Am so low in determination... why why why???

He is... unbelievable!

Very cool dance act I must say..

Delighted.

*From moi workplace

... brought my lappy to work and erm.. managed to connect to one available 'open' wireless network over.. *wink* thought maybe I could spend some time blogging here while waiting for my lunch.. haha

... it has been a little great birthday month.. with all the good stuffs and people that I am introduced to, I must say am delighted most of the time,*smiling broadly*.. (apart from some hiccups here & there which are not worth mentioning here..)

... just hope things will keep on sailing smoothly.. and the true happiness will surface soon.. =)

Unbelievable

A good one to describe everything now...


Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.


When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Oh yeah, break down and cry.


Now I see, what love means

Game for it??

After a long consideration and discussion with the loved one and friends, I am going to pursue what I have wanted, and so glad to have the support from the people that I love the most..

... I seem to have given myself a lot of birthday pressie this year.. =) and I have got my first birthday present for this year, a very very very early one.. no.. not only one but at least three or more.. haha!! Am so delighted!

Longest trip back home

Guess what! I had actually spent the goddamn 2++ hours to travel back home from work today! (normal traveling time = 1.25 hours) I hate that and I almost wanted to break someone's neck because of that!!

...all thanks to my 'Keh Kiang-ness' (hokkien) to try taking 2 buses to go home as I really don't fancy the idea of switching bus and train then bus again to get to the destination, as I thought it is really a waste of time but I think now I would rather do that to save my misery of traveling on the buses with thousands over stops and traffic lights, finally I understand why we need to pay more to travel on the MRT!

... I am considering of shifting again.. seriously! Just find me a bloody room that is located not more than 5 MRT or bus stops and I will be so much thankful of u! No joke..

It's been a month

Wow! Time flies & its been a month since I last updated my blog,
... and not to mention, also almost a month since I left my old workplace..

Things are sailing pretty well so far, though initially there were some dissatisfactions at work, but I guess nothing is perfect and it is just 'give & take'. At least I got to be sponsored for a course in May which I believe I wouldnt be getting it if I were still slogging at the old workplace, so much lesser patient load for a day (Well.. and not to forget the napping and playing my DS there..shhhhhh!!!) Now, all I hope is just getting more pay!! *Wink*

Bought a new lappy, (namely Nanami) unexpectedly, which of course implying that my money is gone again. Anyway, ya.. I would say that its a good buy with all the good specs bla bla bla and gift (160gb WD Passport external hdd), so gonna love 'her' more than anything else from now onwards! *Muacks*

Got to know this affordable 10-day Himalayas Expedition. It's so fantastic and am definitely joining it! I have always had this dream to go to places with incredible history, exhilarating sceneries & ancient Buddhist temples like Tibet and Himalayas, somehow I just feel I need to be there to see them!! Hope the time has come and this is the time for me to realize the dream! This is going to be the TRIP OF THE YEAR if I manage to get the place. *Keep finger crossed*

....Another weekend is here, will be on course.. cant complain much as its for my own skill advancement.. but still cant help to feel upset thinking I have to sacrifice my sleep and rest. *Sigh*

Last day

Last day: Yesterday was my last day working at my workplace, things were just as per normal (normal as in the leave quota can be exceeded for certain people, and those who came to work have to cover and struggle to work for them, irritating) Well, its been pretty busy for myself (apart from the S*** that i just mentioned) as I needed to bid farewell to the fellow colleagues in the wards, return my stuffs and clear the patients so that it will not be a hectic week for my ex-colleagues next week (hmm..so not used to the term ex- here, haahaa) oh, and not to forget about the horror movie that I watched with friends, i think they must have regretted to say yes.. =P *pai seh*

Farewell: had alot of farewell dinners/lunch with friends at the workplace and endless laughters that made my tummy burst for the past one week! Thanks for the great chillax outings! and of course the treats from you all.. *muacks*

My feeling: undoubtedly.. I feel relief to be able to leave the god-forsaken place like what a friend of mine described it as.. the only thing that makes me feel so reluctant to say bye is the nice people that I have met throughout the journey, though some may have left earlier than me.. some are still struggling there, I guess its part and parcel of the life to move on, but am sure we will always remain as good friends, and the next outings will be me listening to your all whining about the place..*gigle*

New place: one line for now, hope its a good new start..and my application can be submitted soon! *pray*

真没话说。。

What is the meaning of farewell dinner??

Farewell dinner 是自己办的吗？有人可以告诉我吗？？like begging and forcing people to say bye and pay for you.. I would rather dont want one.. especially when people who attend it are there JUST FOR ANOTHER DINNER..

.. but am glad that I still have friends that are truly sincerely wanting to bid farewell with me.. YL, though its just a very simple Carl's Jr and I am sure that you werent thinking about my farewell when you said you wanted to give me a treat, =P..but still thank you so much for it.. and YES! AM OUT OF THE HELL PLACE.. remember to get him so that your 姐妹的幸福也有个着落..haha! And for the coming dinner with people that I REALLY want to bid farewell with.. looking forward to it.. hope its another fantastic gossipy night out!

.. and I hope I will not have to be asked to organise my own farewell party in future!!

~ END ~

Home Sweet Home

Yay! Am back at my home after one year plus!! Goshh... Missed my big big bed man..

.. now using my dad's new laptop to online in my nice cosy room.. the room is so much tidier compared to the one in Singapore.. thanks to my dear mama..She had even bought a new curtain (shower curtain, to be more specific) for my window.. rationale behind it.. to block whoever that stay behind my room from peeping on me.. haha.. isnt she cute??

First day of CNY... basically nothing much for me except I got to see alot of taiwan/china entertainment shows from the cable tv.. and of course little bit of the ang paos from the elders.. got to see my dear cousins whom I had not met since the CNY 2 years ago.. They had grown up to be so handsome man!!! Time flies...Remind me of how old I am now.. and am like their big sister.. =(

Hopefully can get to meet some of the old friends too... and the most important thing is.. the holiday has just started!! I am going to be nua-ing at home for the next whole week!!!

You're 6:49 a.m.

You're the time of day right around sunrise, when the sky is still a pale bluish gray. The streets are empty, and the grass and leaves are a little bit sparkly with dew. You are the sound of a few chirpy birds outside the window. You are quiet, peaceful, and contemplative. If you move slowly, it's not because you're lazy – it's because you know there's no reason to rush. You move like a relaxed cat, pausing for deep stretches that make your muscles feel alive. You are long sips of tea or coffee (out of a mug that's held with both hands) that slowly warm your insides just as the sun is brightening the sky.


... randomly took this test while reading on a friend's blog... pretty true for me! =)

Inspiring one

Something to motivate ourselves...

Secret to you

Decision made

The deal is set.. am taking what am being offered today.. Not too sure if its the best deal, but am taking it as a chance to move on.. Everybody is very happy for me, thanks for all your support.. No more JCIA!! 去你的！=D

..as for the last mission that I need to accomplish before I go.. is 'Bravo' the only way out?? Maybe it is.. afterall if nothing happen, I dont have to face it there and then too.. mmm.... 你们赞同我吗？？BUT... what bravo action should I plan??? *thinking hard*

It's 2am now

Phew.. finally done with my CV at this hour.. So well awake though!! Must have passed my sleeping time, darn.. Need to get up in another 5-hour time or maybe less..

I didnt get to do what I was supposed to do today despite 怂恿 by my buddies for I had really no gut, *hopeless*.. maybe they are right when they said that you will be like a 绵羊 when you are in front of someone you have a crush on, but then do I really have a crush on him?? or am just fantasizing about having a crush on him, and psychologically make myself become like this.. or I just want to be adored in a way or another?? I really have no idea.. but true enough that my emotion seems to be controlled by this most of the time, even the way he spoke on the phone could make me kept wondering who was on the other side of the line, aaarghhhh! This aint right!

... Sigh.. 不想了。。好累！！

It's bloody hot here!

Its been a while since I last posted an entry about my boring days here.. Reason behind it was that.. it is BORING like I have said.. nothing interesting had actually striked my life recently.. except the same old nonsense..

Am in the midst of transition.. if everything runs smooth, very likely I will be in a new environment, come to think about it.. I am pretty worried about it, whether I can cope and what I will be facing there..

I need supports and advices.. After so long standing up here alone, making my own decisions, convincing myself that am doing the right thing.. sometimes I do really hope that the someone, my right one will be there for me.. help me analyse the decisions and choices, giving me the mental support.. *sigh*.. 你在哪里？？？什么时候才出现？？

...no doubt, am thankful that my family are all behind me for this..thought they would disagree with me and asked me to bear with the nonsense over here and 忍忍忍, but to my suprise, they didnt.. guess they have started believing that their youngest daughter/sister is no longer the baby anymore.. and I am wise enough to make my own decision.. (I hope..)

On the other side of story.. I get to know a few breakups among friends recently, sighz..感情真的这么脆弱吗?? Argh.. too far away for me to worry about it for me 八字都没看到那一点！！Everyone, buck up! Am not too sure when we will be meeting the right one, but am sure you all have finally 解脱了！！更好的会出现！we all, the good girls deserve a better one.. haha!

A piece of good news.. my beloved nephew is finally walking unsupported now! Yay! He is just getting cuter and cuter day by day, am so looking forward to see him next month.. he is indeed the king in my family! Haha..

I, the leader

Just did a personality randomly.. and this is what I get.. hohoho...

"A natural born leader, even though the world may not yet be aware of this leadership ability, you should believe in yourself. Everyday you get more power, more drive to succeed and present yourself in a more self confident manner. Even in places where failure seems inevitable, your creativity and improvisation wins the day. Your habit of looking at the big picture when everyone else is caught up in trivial details makes you visionary."

Yes... am the survivor!! muahaahaa...

Comfort Zone II

Just at the time when I felt so lost, a sms from a friend opened a chance for me to move on..

.. I realised that its not easy to make up the mind but with the help and analyses from my 2 good buddies at Ding Tai Feng..(love you guys man..haha!).. I have sort of decided to go for it, afterall I myself cant see any future and prospect here..

It may not be a perfect place.. but am sure it will definitely be better than the goddamn place..

Wish me luck everyone!! =)

Comfort Zone I

Walking Into The World Outside of Your World

it can be so easy to get caught up in our day-to-day and the people in our world but what if we looked outside of our proverbial windows?

What if we paid as much attention to the billions of people we do not know as we do the people we no longer wish to know?

What if we took the time to honor those who know us well and love us anyway and reached out to those we'd like to know better?

What if we remembered that our nasty co-worker, testy boss or snide sibling is just another human being who carries insecurities, worries, desires and dreams just like we do?

What if we found comfort in the fact that we make the final decision as to how much we are willing to take, what our boundaries are and where and with whom we spend our time?

What if we stopped suffocating in the small corner we live in and walked out into the world for a bit of fresh air and perspective?

- Something that I have read online recently.. maybe I should really walk out of my comfort zone to get what I want... mmmmm... anyone agree with me??

1st of January

Today is the first day of 2008.

Had a wonderful eve yesterday..*haaapppyyyyy*

A day to remember.. =)

May it be a good start for Year of 2008!